The 7 in my life...







1. He took advantage of everything about me.

How could you do that to someone?

Well, now that you've partly succeeded in killing me, you should know that you haven't reached all limits... and you never will. You did not put another in me for me to kill. But one day, you will lose part of your vision. You will break your nose by not even getting hit. You'll die on the inside. At least, I hope so. I hope I never see you or your precious tattoo of a fucking Afghanistan flower. The pedals of it will die and wither. You will be sent to hell.
How could you?

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2. I look for his car everywhere I go. I can't do this to myself. I'm sorry I had to hurt you, but I'm so good at it. There is no reason to think I'm disgusting. It wasn't my fault. It wasn't my fault.

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3. Thanks for tearing me apart again and bringing back my past in a disturbing mockery. It really brings my day up.
Asshole.
I don't quite understand it.
We had something great... like you were another part of my soul... but after the night I cried out my eyes for the last time, I've come to realize that the part of my soul you bear in your heart just withers away with your words and actions.
I hate it. I fucking hate it.

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4. She is beautiful to me. Everytime I see her, she is beautiful.
An angel to me.

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5. I miss you, sis. I miss what we had... but we still have it. You are still amazing to me. It won't fail. I'm sorry I've shown no interest in caring, but I do... more than you will know. I love you, sis. I love you.

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6. You are such a great kid. Who am I kidding? You are awesome. I wish it would work someday. She is a million miles away, and I am only 10 minutes down the road. I could love you... you and your angel face. I hate the way you smile at me. It gives me hope of you and me, but inside.. I know I couldn't have you... and I hate hearing that.

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7. Maybe there is hope here. I've let go of your love once. Do you think it'll happen again. I'll see you after the 6th, darling. I miss your lovely face. and smile. and eyes.. the eyes that called me love. I miss us.







Rachel Lauren.
Dragonfly.
Angel.